Wednesday 26 March 2014

The Highs and Lows

So the title says it all. This week (even though it's only Wednesday) has been a bit of a crazy period filled with tears and the occasional moments of laughter, but I'll just let the poem do the talking. Just felt like doing a little intro for you guys 

Can anybody hear me?
Am I going insane
It seems like the one time I try and be happy the devil steps in the way
You say don't let the devil get in the way
But it's easier said than done
I cry myself to sleep most nights
Not necessarily because I pray for something different
Sometimes just to let everything out
You claim you understand, but really all you can do is try
Your not in my position so I don't expect you to understand
Things will get better they say
So why am I pulling my hair
Frustrated, Annoyed
I understand not to blame myself
I can't don't you understand
I never blame myself
It's a fact of life I gotta continue
I can't really say much
Without coming across ungrateful
Rushin to you for support
And you turn me away
Sayin everythin will be okay
Don't feed me what I want to hear
What I already know
Sometimes just shut the fuck up and listen
Don't say anything, give me advice, give me harsh reality
Sometimes all I want is your ears

Open your ears close your mouth
Close your eyes imagine me saying this to you
All you're feeding me is bullshit
God dey for sky
I'm here for you
Stop pitying yourself
Making yourself feel bad
How does it sound to you
Annoying?
Many do it without realising

Do the opposite sometimes
Although I may get angry
Ignore what I'm saying
Make an irrelevant point
Inappropriate comment
Anything
Something
Just to make it stop
Make it stop
Take it away

I wanna feel you
Touch you
Caress you
But you're nowhere near
You have so much power you don't even realise it
Or utilize it.
You make me happy and can still drive me insane
Dig the biggest hole in my heart
Stab me so softly
Make me feel all type a ways

The day will come
One day I hope
When all the above comes true and I get to feel you
Till then messages will do
Silent tears will continue
Forced laughter
Genuine cackles
Hope for major
Minor Success
Maybe get published

Such is life
I don't like to say it
But it is what it is
Things won't get better
There  is no light at the end of the tunnel
The devil does want me
I'm a dysfunctional angel
Without hope
Without direction
But I thank him for my ability of expression

I can't say I wanna fight no more
Honestly I don't
Take the battle for me
I'm tired

They bring some weird light
I become so comfortable
I can see the light
I'm drawing towards
It
My eyes are closin
Breathing slowing
Yet I don't feel I'm dying  
Inhale...Exhale

Baby Wait
Hold on
But I'm tired of holding
You can't leave me
Tears flow wetting, pealing my pale face
Open your eyes woman
Screaming, shouting, Wailing
But I need to go
No you stay
He cradles you
It's not your time baby
Go back
They need you
But-
Don't question me
They. Need. You
They won't say it out loud
But they do
He needs you
Just as much as you need him

Don't turn back now
Put that blade down
Let the rope go
Sometimes say yes instead of no
Don't question life
Needless to say it has unanswered questions
Do your bit
think of it like a skit
It's really, really short
Shorter than you imagine
So smile and conquer the world
Things might not get better

But believe me
Put a bullet to your head
Slicing yourself
Popping pills
Running away
Hanging yourself
Some form of life destruction
I've more than likely felt it
Or even wanted to do it

Harming another?
Common thing for me
To punch, kick or slap them
Scream? Bitch? Strangle?
I felt that way too

But there are people or things you love isn't there?
You say no, but there is!
Your mum, best friend, wife, girlfriend
Toy, Diary, music artist even down to a scene in a film
That is the thing that needs you!
Wants to satisfy you
Make you feel better
So stay put
It's crying out for you
Hold on to it
To me
This Post
Something
I'm not preaching to you
Some of you will think
Fuck it she doesn't get it I still wanna go
Go. If it's your time then what can I say
But to someone else on the brink
Not quite there
I hope this helps you

Think of that buzz you get
Something that makes you smile
because that's what makes it all worth while
And when you spread your word
Like I am to you
You can shout me out
And say that girl's poem
Blessing's poem Pointed me in the right direction

I'd rather you didn't do that though
The moment will be about you not me
I take zero credit your all that matters
Keep your head up
Your shine will come
Regardless
So smile
It's all a matter of time
Before it becomes worth while

Thursday 20 March 2014

SEKEM

Open your legs, one hand on your waist, one hand your chest oya SEKEM! 

MC Galaxy Sekem ArtAs we speak now now I'm doing Sekem! MC Galaxy has created a sure hit titled Sekem. Due to up and coming producer TSpize's mad skills this is sure to be a hit!

There's also a chance to win $3,000 by uploading your Sekem videos to Youtube 

So have fun with it! 

Oya Sekem! 




Monday 17 March 2014

We Made It!


18 posts, 11 weeks, 77 days, 1848 hours, 110,880 minutes and 6,652,800  seconds..We made it! 

Yep we finally reached 500 views!

Okay your probably sitting there thinking it's only 500 views and you have every right to think that, but to me it's a big achievement! I have another blog - Anything&Everything  and it's got 900+ views and when it reached 500 I never made a big deal of it. However the difference with this blog is I actually put my heart and soul into to this blog and have a genuine passion to keep on blogging on here. Also I kinda made the target to get 500 views by April and you guys helped me reach that a whole month early!

So thank you to each and every one of you! Cheers to more poetry, music & a new element called  Life's Big Questions

Blogging would be a cool full time job don't you think? 

Anyways.,.

WE MADE IT! 


Me when I hit 500 views




i'm feeling myself! 

Sunday 16 March 2014

Blind Truth

Listen on a low volume
Have you ever loved something so much
So much it's a passion
You'd do anything to fulfill it
It feels like you've never worked a day in your life
Nothin compares to it
It's the thing that drives you
Makes you
And possibly the only thing that can break you

Yeah I felt like that once

You see this thing you guys call a blog
I call a home
A place where I can express
Unwind
Put pen to paper
And know it's all gone

You see that phrase
Without you
There's no me?
Nah I don't live by that
This blog would still be alive without you
I write for me not you
Remember that

I have no followers on this thing
But many a reader
Some of you scroll
Some read
Others have bookmarked
Even if you came by accident
All of you are appreciated

You chose to do that
I didn't make you
I have no idea where I'm going with this
Maybe it's a hobby
Could turn into a full time job
I honestly don't know

This thing you guys call Writers Block
I'm going through that
My mind is frazzled
Plenty of ideas
Nothing sticks

Then I remember what brought me here
In the famous words of Mary J
No more pain
But that's just it
I suffer so much pain
With no form of execution

You've helped me manage my pain
Manage my tears
Build a strong woman
A successful woman
Who will drive and push
To what she wants
Change the face of the earth

Each post eases my struggle a little
My love for music
Contradictory to the poem
Demonstrates my way of search
I find things that emit a feeling
For me not you
You then click and listen
But what happens after ain't my problem

Poetry

The thing I hated in school
But freely write on here

Meet me in person
I'm not much of a talker
Friends will tell you otherwise
More a Listener
Absorb all the info
Take in surroundings
Make my own conclusions
But never tell you

I write for me
Not you
Don't like it
Do one

Special thanks to Timi x 

Thursday 13 March 2014

My New Motto In life

It's 00:49 out here and I couldn't sleep so I decided to bless you guys with another post!

Skuki drop another track floor filler Forward Ever and I'm gonna side step Skuki a second and praise Clarence Peters! I honestly don't think this guy gets enough credit like maybe it's because I do Media studies and we are forced to learn about camera angles and stuff, but this video is done so cleanly and the bit with the shirt at the beginning was just amazing because I thought it was a woman unbuttoning her shirt to begin with, but Peters did another fantastic job! Props to Skuki too!




And remember Forward Ever Backward Never!

Domino's Pizza Hits Nigeria!

So Nigeria is slowly improving to the point where we now have Domino's Pizza! I'm mega late I know, but I didn't only make this post to celebrate Nigeria's achievement, but I just saw a video of the staff of Domino's dancing at what I guess is the opening? When I mean I can't stop laughing! Please just laugh with me










Have a wonderful night!

Sunday 9 March 2014

Idris Elba Sings?

Yes you read correctly! D'banj, Shadowboxer and the Idris Elba as weird as the collaboration sounds came together to make Confidential. Me? Shocked, but it could grow on me



What do you think?




Wednesday 5 March 2014

Sexx

Hello! I just realized I don't really introduce my poems I just slap them on here! Well this one I've been sitting on for a little while and I decided to have a little fun with my poetry this time round, while still highlighting some issues 


Listen to this while reading it sets the tone nicely. Enjoy! 

That thing that happens between two people
It begins with a hey babe you alright
Yeah, I'm good
Can can have your number
She giggles
Nah seriously can man have your number
She smiles
Yeah sure
Soon your textin back and forth
Just casual textin
Nothin serious
Not just yet
He calls you one day
Hey wanna link up?
Deep inside this girl is like
I dunno
But,
She says yes anyway
My guy, Lets say Daniel for now
Is like yeah gonna secure that quick ting!
So they get dressed,
She let say, Sara is fixing her weave
Straightening it
Because basically see wanna look fly
Anyway skip the waffle
They link up
He is a true gentleman to her

Back to the crib
Thing heat up quickly
So stay with me
The door shuts
You know what happen next
Clothes are dispersed
She arches her back
Screams in pleasure
Legs wrapped round this guys waist claws digging in too
My man is singing hallelujah I got my fix
Gets dressed and things end real quick
The girl is off her sexual high
Daniel kicks her out with no reason why
Just quick, beat, dress and bounce

So who's got it wrong in the scenario?
What if I told that was her first time?
Make things any different?

Nope

Okay what is it with our generation
We spend so much time
Too much time
Blaming one other
when the real question is
What is sex?
Just that thing that happens with A and B
Your XX or XY chromosomes
Your Gender
Which is it because I'm at a loss
S + E + X = x
because even though when we add those letters together and get sex
What does sex even mean?

Dictionary

It says it's the intercourse between a man and a woman
But really?
Is that enough
I just don't know

Has it ever occurred to you
We the youth of Britain say
Oh I'm gonna beat that chick
Like what is that?
Beat is so
Violent
Your gonna hit something
Course an effect
In reality you are making an effect
Many effects
But is the act that violent as such
Just take a minute
Is it really a 'beat'
But then we're young

Sex is meant to be that special thing
which is now just turned into many things

How many ways do we use sex?
That meal was the sex
Leonardo Dicaprio is the sex
So really

What is sex?

Has it got to the point where we associate sex with food
I raise my hand
I'm a user of the term
But it slips off my tongue
Much how the kids of today are so quick to slip off their underwear?

Explain this

If a girl has sex with many men she's a hoe
But a man does the same with plenty girls
It's a bit like cool story bro
Or you praise him?
Hail him even
Like is that fair
A woman carries a baby for nine months
 Is that why it's so nasty if she opens her legs for more than a few
But you didn't mind slipping it in either
So nobody is the real winner

It's the battle of the sexes


The bible says
Sex is to happen in marriage
Not before
So what happens to that person
Who did as raised
Waited
The marriage came and went
And soon sex was the main event
I don't mean in pleasure
It is no longer fun
Just give me when I want
Tell me who's to blame then
Was she naive
I think not
Do we blame religion?
Possibly
She waited and is now a machine for following a rule
Punches, slaps or worse follow
if she doesn't do
Tell me who is there to share her sorrow

To death do us part my foot
I would leave as quick as I could
It's easier said than done
But sometimes you have to run

So should we have so much faith in the thing we call religion
Or show we be wary
Some will say it will get better
God has a plan
Don't give me that crap
We're you there when she was getting slapped?
No?
Keep quite then

Lets be fair
There's some good boys out there
Warn their friends
Omo this girl is ashewo
But some of you are just ignorant and don't wanna listen
That or your group has gassed you
Because reality is it takes two to play this game

Some wait forever to have a kid
So this beat learn to cherish it
It is not a right consider it more a gift
a gift that can be returned

So what is sex?

A chromosome
An  act
Your  Gender

It's a big misleader  
I tell ya


What is your definition of sex?